ACCEPTING SELF-LOVE

This week, I would like to share something that touched my heart. It was not directly related to me, but rather to a loved one.

It's incredible when you feel genuine love from someone who shows it and acts upon it with their heart and soul.

The saddest thing is that the person on the receiving end, although they reciprocate the love, finds it hard to accept that anyone can feel that deep love for them, because they have been through a lot of negative experiences in their lives.

The emotion I witnessed between the two people in question was powerful, and I was genuinely happy for them, as if it were my good news.

The person who struggled to recognise their worth and the fact that they deserved all the happiness is what touched me.

I told her, ‘You must learn to let go and accept the way that person feels, as you will never be happy.

I never felt such a powerful love as I experienced underneath that willow tree between those two people.

This has brought many things up for me today, such as how much time we spend doubting the love bestowed upon us because we have no love for ourselves.

The reason I write this is that when I look back on my life, I feel the love of God throughout, and I realise how many times He has saved me from destroying myself.

Even when I was far away from him, he still held me close.

I am not writing to preach to you about the love and grace that God gives us individually, but how I feel and see it from my perspective.

The God of my understanding gives me that peace in my mind that I cannot even understand. I was made for love, and I was born for love.

I have been through a very challenging few months with my health and down many cancer pathways within a year.

When I worried, I prayed and left it with God. ‘Thy will be done’ I have no control over my demise, but I can make some lifestyle changes to help myself.

The love I felt from my Father was powerful, and today I feel the love from my mother and my whole family; they don’t even have to say anything.

I had to love myself before I could know how to show the love in my heart for people.

It's not just about what I do, but also how I do it, how I feel about it, and giving my time to someone else. I feel rewarded when I see them smile or feel comforted.

I am a genuinely people-focused person, and I think that if I were a billionaire, no one would ever know because I would not want them to see me for what I have but who I am.

I always say that it's a shame it took me so long to realise what genuine love is between family and friends until I accepted who I was and made the necessary changes.

Before, I would be quick to judge someone and not accept a person for who they are and expect them to change to how I thought they should be.

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We are all constantly growing in life, learning from its lessons, but some may take longer to find growth because they are not in touch with self.

Although I dislike the excuse for misdeeds as ‘I’m not perfect’, when it follows ‘but I am trying my best to become a better version of myself’, that is when I can accept it.

The excuse of being imperfect and doing nothing to improve is a lame way of living life.

It doesn’t matter where life has taken you, whether you have been in prison or just someone who is known as an unvirtuous character. If you are willing to put the work in to change, then you are on the right track for growth.

Even though it is a spiritual battle to be the best we can, we all have our demons, but we have to learn to fight the dark side within us.

Today, I can say I feel loved, I understand genuine love, and I am overwhelmed by such love.

By rediscovering who I am and surrendering all my defects and resentments, I was able to use the word love with significant meaning, deep from my heart and soul.

I am not flawless. I still hold prejudices towards some strangers and people with bad habits, but I am not special.

I try to accept them, but if it makes me feel uncomfortable, I steer clear of them.

I have the choice to take myself away from any situations that compromise my mental, emotional and spiritual well-being.

But I like to think that what I write about will help to make a difference even in one person's life.

In everything, there must be a balance.

Natalie M Bleau

Scripture of Balance