NURTURING SELF AWARENESS

Each person faces struggles, and society's diminishing values and principles only compound the challenges they must overcome.

We had clear boundaries and a strong sense of right and wrong. As children, we didn’t feel pressured or threatened to be like everyone else.

My parents instilled in us a strong moral compass and emphasised the importance of respecting our elders.

There were severe repercussions for talking back and using inappropriate language.

While I do not condone violent forms of punishment, I do believe in the importance of discipline.

Kids subjected to harsh discipline tend to repeat the cycle with their children or opt for a more lenient approach without punishment.

The most effective method of disciplining a child is temporarily removing something they enjoy.

Caving into a child’s demands is never the solution.

It isn’t until adulthood that we genuinely understand our parents' intentions. They were preparing us for the world, doing the best they could.

I was always caught off guard by the harsh realities of the world, having only ventured outside for church or school.

My life was sheltered and protected from the reality.

Beyond the walls of my childhood home, I was exposed to tales of despair and hardship. I learned about the darkness within people and the importance of being cautious when trusting others.

My lack of close friendships and relationships left me with little knowledge or experience.

As I understood it, the world was shaped by the stories I heard, but my reality painted a different picture.

As I grew older, I found myself constantly questioning the motives of those around me, convinced that everyone harboured ill intentions.

I became toughened and found myself unable to cultivate positive relationships or friendships.

It is crucial to form your thoughts and not simply follow the paths set by others.

To navigate this harsh world, I had to develop a tough exterior. This caused me to struggle with expressing love and affection in relationships, as I viewed it as a sign of weakness.

Instead of appreciating the positives, I focused on looking for the negative aspects, ultimately leading to my downfall.

I’ve spent my whole life without any close friends, and my relationships have never succeeded because I was emotionally distant.

The most challenging aspect of staying alive was not finding joy in life but simply going through the motions of existence.

I encountered numerous obstacles alone, and I had to navigate my path alone, relying solely on my perceived knowledge.

When I set out on my own at 19, I brought a wealth of domestic skills to create a comfortable home environment.

 Alongside good manners, impeccable hygiene, and clear boundaries, I was well-prepared for the journey ahead.

I pride myself on being civilised, but I prefer to keep the world at arm’s length once I close my front door.

I had friendly neighbours, but I preferred to keep to myself.

In those days, it was not uncommon for unexpected guests to drop by at any hour, with people freely entering each other’s homes without hesitation.

I have never lived this way, and even now, all my interactions happen beyond the walls of my home.

In the words of an Englishman, "My home is my castle.”

I am grateful that I have never socialised with anyone in my neighbourhood because once you open your doors to someone, they will feel entitled to come over whenever they please.

You’re setting yourself up for trouble. When conflicts arise, the temptation to escape from your home becomes strong.

I have a strong case of OCD, and I prefer that people do not invade my personal space with their habits.

To thrive in this world, it is essential to establish clear boundaries.

Some might describe me as an introvert, but I enjoy engaging in thoughtful conversations with others. However, I do cherish my solitude and value quiet moments spent alone.

I avoid forming deep connections because I struggle to sustain any relationship.

Despite making significant progress in various aspects of my life, I have consciously avoided getting involved in romantic relationships or close friendships.

Trust has not been a concern for me for quite some time now. Instead, my issue lies in my unwillingness to compromise my time for others.

I strongly dislike being bossed around and loath arrogant people who believe they have all the answers.

I have always been independent, as I have never felt secure enough to rely on others and let my guard down. 

I have never experienced romantic love or felt secure in relationships because I have always been guarded. I erected a sturdy barrier to shield myself from disadvantage.

Surviving in such a manner is not conducive to good health but rather a sorrowful existence.

After dedicating three years to self-discovery, I have conquered some of my ingrained habits and behaviours.

The world remains a stunning sight, yet it is the actions of people that tarnish its beauty.

I avoid individuals who bring negative vibes into my life, choosing instead to surround myself with people who radiate positivity.

This is the sole means by which I can endure and thrive, both mentally and emotionally.

I have removed anything that no longer serves my well-being, as it causes unnecessary stress.

Stepping out of the familiar comfort of my home, I am heightened in self-awareness, and I cannot afford to be complacent. 

I find solace and security at home, but I must always be vigilant for the unexpected when I step out onto the streets.

I’ve reached a stage where I need to be cautious about where I eat, the company I keep, and my distance from negative influences.

As an empath, I am naturally inclined to be generous with my time and support for those facing difficult times. However, it is crucial for me also to prioritise self-care and ensure that I am taking care of my well-being.

I have realised that ignorant, arrogant, and rude individuals will always exist, and they can get under my skin. However, I have learned the importance of removing myself from such situations.

My purpose is to support those facing mental, emotional, and physical challenges by offering a listening ear rather than trying to fix or finance them.

In everything, there must be a balance.

Natalie M Bleau 

Scripture of Balance